Giving up the hard stuff

 No more choccy treats

Giving up the booze was easy-peasy. Quitting fags? A no-brainer. Removing chocolate from my diet? That's a little harder it seems.
I don't know at what point I became a male version of a terrible Bridget Jones cliche, stuck in a fat bloke's body who wants to do little more than devour a slab of Dairy Milk (fruit and nut), wearing my comfy tracksuit bottoms and hoodie, sat in front of an emotionally challenging film. It feels at times like I'm stuck in some hideous alternative dimension where all I crave is chocolate. And perhaps a bottle of wine.
So, I decided this week that I would knock the deadly cocoa-bean into touch, but it's easier said than done and on Tuesday night I found myself actually craving it, in the same way a junkie craves smack. Well, maybe not quite the same, but in a relative way, it was very tough and weridly more difficult than I thought it would be.
I had to find some way of distracting myself from the obsession that was forming in my mind about chocolate and in the end all I could do was go to sleep.
How ridiculous, it really is. But it's been a few days now, and strangely I haven't suffered any psychologically damaging withdrawal symptoms, but I do think a chocolate ban is having a positive effect. I know it's really pretty obvious that cutting down on foods that make you fat will help you to lose weight, but I've been finding it hard to give up on those little treats.
I have done a lot of running this week though and I'm feeling a little trimmer, so I really want to build on that and get out of the 16st rut I've been in for weeks.
I went out on Friday and a few people reckoned I was looking slimmer, which was really nice. The running is really starting to make a difference now I feel, and tonight I did my 90 minutes as scheduled, even in the rain and cold, and it felt really good.
So I'm going to go for a weigh in tomorrow, for the first time in ages I'm feeling more confident about losing a few pounds as the bathroom scales said 15st 8 lbs this weekend, which would be great if that was official.
Fingers crossed.